My Precious..... Time
Time is a very precious thing, and it’s a balance to use it, because you need rest.
Today is my last day off, concluding a week off that started last Friday. It’s been a mix of family and friends time with the end of school, holiday weekend, general hanging out. Yesterday, kids went to daycare while my partner and I spent time together and had some of our own time, leading to today, with just me being off.
During that alone time yesterday, I spent about 90 minutes working on a painting I had already started a month or so ago. My goal was to finish this painting this week. After feeling good, getting frustrated, feeling accomplished, I stepped away. That changed everything. I realized how awkward and uncomfortable it the piece looked. It was not the original intent. It didn’t feel good. I laid down, came to a conclusion I dreaded: I’m going to paint over it.
And I did. And I felt guilty. And I felt really, really frustrated that I had spent so much time on a painting and I didn’t have anything now to show for it.
Or did I?
Because I learned how to play with different colors. I learned that I liked two colors mixed together on a dark background. I also learned, that though I was frustrated and mad, I didn’t dwell on it (oh thanks therapy for helping my brain!). I learned that I learned a lot of things, even if the hopeful intent didn’t work out. And I learned, I can do something else with the canvas.
So that’s where I’m at right now. Pausing to write up this while I wait for the new work in progress to dry, feeling excited about this new mixed media idea, and mentally drop kicking any Perfectionism that seeks to take away my creative joy. Because that’s the point. My time is precious, learning is precious, and there was no time wasted.
I always include an artwork in a post, and thus I leave you with a small quick mixed media piece that I finished yesterday. A moment of inspiration caused me to go for it, and I couldn’t be happier.
Mixed media: painted leaves and stems, dried flower petals, random neon colors.
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