Thought Tuesday - St. Sebastian (and I'm Terrible)

Scold me please. It's been about a month since my last blog. I'm going to make it up. I'm promising myself to do two a week for the next couple of weeks. This is supposed to help me stay motivated, and of course, when I did not blog, it was hard to make things...then life changes occurred. 

My work schedule changed which means no more Studio Mondays, it's back to Studio Sundays (but I'll still blog on Mondays because urg Mondays). Back to the old Monday - Friday. On a cuter side of things, my dude and I got a puppy. That in itself is a brand new experience, tiring, cute, lots of biting, lots of accidents on the floor, but so much cuteness and cuddles and fluffiness. Now that's it's been a week or so with the new lil guy, it's time to get back into this week's Thoughtful Tuesday for the painting I did last year, St. Sebastian. 

Looking back on this painting, I see a lot of good things and bad things. I could probably attempt this better based on what I've done lately. But I love her. 

I remember getting this idea based off a different painting I did years ago. It was about a nightmare I had. The idea came back to me, but this time I wanted to imitate the imagery of St. Sebastian's death, which you can research. I didn't want blood on this one, I wanted the flowers' petals to represent any "blood" since the flowers do represent arrows. There's really no pain. I think subconsciously, that came from a feeling that it sometimes feels no one understands pain of another, the abuse. They'd rather look at the pretty flowers.